Thought I made it clear now--

I have never had a muse become this strong-- like holy hell-- where did the general ridiculous that is even me (come on, you know I'm not lying) even find that deep inside of me. I feel like somewhere, a teletubbie is crying-- icons, a fanmix in the works, and oh all the RP-- all of it.

Like Emet-Selch is 'big mood' for me-- why is that not a moodlet?

GODDAMN IT, FORGIVE ME WHILE I GO CRY IN A CORNER NOW--BEING THE THIRSTY EMET-LOVER THAT I AM?

Also, why do I like to RP the characters I crush on? Like most people would see the characters that they just absolutely have the hots for and create a journal to throw at that character. Not me-- I go and make the fk'ing character and say "Come at me, bro!" to all those swol WoL's

Just a fucking 'big mood'

Time to talk about WrestleMania, Princess (the manga) and Icons!

Watching televised wrestling is fairly new to me. I didn't start watching it til around 2016, though 2015 I watched matches here and there when it was playing over at Owen's place (since he watches it religiously), I started watching because I saw Bayley wrestle, Owen was actually sneaky enough to show me a character that he thought I would latch on to as an insidious play to get me to watch something that he was so excited about. Hence that is how it started, and how I fell down a hole; I eventually also found Dean Ambrose and Becky Lynch at the bottom, and thus fangirlness was born (I know 'fangirlness' is not a word, and that's okay with me)

While I have become somewhat disenchanted with Bayley (though really, I did really totally fangirl when Bayley attacked Sasha before they became a tag team), my love for Becky Lynch is still going strong so I was thrilled to see that she won, and while I am not a big fan of the route they are taking with a fued with Lacey Evans, it is what it is-- I hope Becky continues to be THE MAN! woop woop! I am not excited about wrestling as much as I used to - (I will be excited when Toni Storm makes the callup from NXT UK, you better believe) but there are still wrestlers that I do follow.

Now about Princess, after posting those icons up at hiraethe, I decided "HEY I WANT TO READ THIS MANGA SERIES AGAIN". And I am. the advantage is that I can recognize all the great traits of my favorite characters early on, the disadvantage is that I can also see exactly where everything went wrong in the second read through, and everything starts going wrong almost from Chapter 1, but reading it the first time, you don't see it and can't imagine the levels of dropped the ball that happens which causes the death of many very beloved characters.

though the series hasn't ended, and I've heard it stated that it hasn't been updated because the mangaka cannot endure the eventual death of certain characters who will remain nameless and who I will be completely gutted over if in fact that happens, and reading the very last chapter a few years ago-- I can see that is exactly where it is headed, and oh the tears-- especially as it is involving my favorite character and my favorite pairing in the series-- if what I think happens happens then it is going to be a very. bad. time for me and I may need to hit the sake bottle to console myself. But the characters, oh the characters. My favorite is Eshild because she is a strong independent woman, and her romance with Leo is almost magical-- she trained herself how to fight, and he's sort of grumpy about it because she's a princess but then when he realizes that he can't protect her 24/7, he realizes that he's glad that she can hold her own. The 'main' couple is not my favorite, but I think it is because the two together are not really strong personalities--

Since I am re-reading the series, there will probably be a lot of icons involving it-- already have a few manga caps picked out as well as some of the cover art which is also gorgeous! Gotta see if my manga colouring game is as strong as it used to be-- (doubtful).

I cleared the icon challenges on my plate so now it's 'Nia Freeform', though I am planning opening up a gift icon post sometime in the next couple of weeks-- also there is some textures to make for over at my icon comm, so icon wise-- I still have a lot on my plate because hey, I love a good buffet and I keep piling it on and on so that my work will never be done.

I also have a new icon uploaded that I have to figure out the lyrics for-- and that will put my Chrono Trigger icon count up to 2 (3 if you count my Chrono Trigger OC which I also have an icon of because immadork-- even dorkier that when I make my Magus icon, I will un-upload her and then upload the both of them.. side.by.side. *shots fired... at myself*) Bur seriously Marle is my second favorite character in the game-- playable. (Schala is up there as well even though she's an NPC)-- she's no Magus, but that's alright because I love her optimism and hope regardless.

It really is a lot of fun to play a game all the way over again.

Going into my second playthrough of "Tales of Vesperia", I was a little bit wary because I thought perhaps I wasn't quite ready, there were so many worries I had in my head as that was a fandom that myself and my ex-girlfriend shared. And I have a real fucking hard time with fandoms because once upon a time I had a partner in crime, but a long the way I've had to sort of go the path alone without a bosom companion. But let me tell you, I really don't know what I was worrying about. I don't even hate Yuri which means that maybe I've grown past the whole 'superimposing' other people onto characters---> god knows I've grown out of that myself, I love characters but I don't pretend that I 'am' them, not any longer.

And I am picking so much up that was lost on the second playthrough, all the nuances-- every time Schwann shows up, every thing Flynn utters, the Rita/Estelle subtext. OH YES AND I AM ENJOYING PATTY, oh my gosh, could she be any cuter? Maybe she is balancing my whole dislike of Karol, I don't know-- but her voice is cute, she is cute and just d'awww.

I am also seeing some Duke/Raven subtext which actually makes me happy, it means my shipping googles are still on and fully functional.

Also-- dare I say, I can see Yuri/Flynn-- I can accept them as a pairing in a way that I sort of shunned a long time ago. Like, I think that they are both INTENSELY stubborn individuals and still have a hell of a lot of growing to do, but in my heart--I think I want to see them hit the endgame together, because you have lawful good and chaotic good together, and it just sort of works right there-- they both are striving for the same thing, but they are both diametrically opposite in their ways of doing it.

I seriously played Tales of Vesperia most of yesterday (when Tales of Vesperia hit my hands) and nearly ALL of today.

Midnight is what time we got out-- normally start time is 11:30 and end time is 10:00 which is a straight 10 hours' but today we came in at 10:30 and got out at 12:00-- which is too much time.. TOO MUCH TIME DEALING WITH PEOPLE WHO TAKE WAY TOO MUCH OF MY ENERY-- it's like everywhere, everywhere "STUPIDITY SURROUNDS", and you'd think that I wasn't an ENFP with the talk that I am indulging in.

But most people forget one vital function of the ENFP personality-- that is Te.

Ni (function-dominant): SPARKLES BUNNIES RAINBOWS BOOKS VIDEO GAMES ALL THE THINGS *grabby hands*
Fi (function-auxiliary): Hey, let me sit here and read sappy romance novels and listen to Keane music all day
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Si (function-inferior): *the kid with the ipod stuck in his ears, playing bejeweled blitz on his cellphone-- every single minute of every single day*

Right between Fi and Si, there is Te--

There was a song written about my Te function, it was by Cake, entitled "Short Skirt, Long Jacket"-- Tertiary function, hates people, hates everyone, likes coffee, likes songs about shooting the balls off of men, is a mean ass motherfucking bitch-- it is the part that exists while I am at work-- there is no fun times with me (unless you are Owen or a chosen few who my Te has deemed 'hard workers' and therefore worthy of being exposed to the other areas of my personality), I will tell you exactly what I think of you and I will do it in the most blunt and brutal way-- the queen of the bitch slap (the ENFP bitch slap is as real as the INFJ door slam-- and the Te function pretty much invented it). There are many people who I have plotted out their deaths intricately in my mind, but unfortunately for Te, my other functions click into place once I leave that raging cesspit, and thus no opportunity to do so (also, as we've discussed-- there's no video games in prison, so murder is a no go, I'd be SOOOO bored)

Today Te was in overdrive, so much that I hopefully will sleep like a baby-- seriously 13 hours in that place like 13 hours too many

Did I mention that I have to wake up in 7 hours to do it ALL again-- motherfucking A-----~!!

What I wouldn't give to work with competent people-- and people say that I act way different on facebook then at work-- well d'uh! I'm happier when I don't have to deal with constant stupidity-- you'd think I was a babysitter or something.

Yes, I'm harsh-- I know--

Sorry for not responding to posts or anything-- I did read all of them (okay I skimmed them)-- but mondays are usually not ideal response days for me-- hopefully y'all had a better and more fufilling monday then I did-- guess I better throw myself at my bed and hope that this adrenaline pans out so that I can sleep!

It is officially Snowpocalypse in Kentucky and I am pretty much homebound. I went to the grocery store last night to sort of stock up (work didn't let us out until late due to last minute emergency drug shipment orders) and oh boy did everything get ransacked. I thought I was pretty lucky to make it out of there with hot dogs. I also have fries and chicken tenders in the freezer so I definitely won't starve. But it also means that a few days without Owen which is all well and good, we have been seeing each other pretty regularly.

So I decided to catch up on RuPaul's Drag Race because let's face it, I am bad with keeping up with T.V (at least on my own, though Owen is patient enough to watch through key episodes with me on various shows and we are currently re-watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer). It's a nice 'me' weekend (I will see him Sunday though!).

It would be a lovely day except for the migraine that I woke up with. Usually I have a 'that time of the month' entrance migraine and then a 'that time of the month' exit migraine. Obviously, this is going to be a 'duration headache' since I experienced the entrance headache no earlier then Wednesday. :( I have taken some medicine and I have cats to curl up with so I will be fine.

Also the 'Cat Atsume~!" game on the phone is amazing, I love collecting cats, at least virtual ones. L.I.T.A and D.I.T.A are really enough for me when all things are considered (The little kitty wierdos). Yeah, I know that this is a sporadic post that goes every which way and I apologize (not really).

Hopefully you are all having an EXCELLENT friday!

Let the iconning begin!