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alwaysbeenasmilerHere is for my daily post-- because I have to have my thought vomit before work.
Yesterday I picked ferring, which is pretty much the medicine for any time of vaginal ick that you can think of to have-- or rather it's OB/GYN stuff. And there were 10,000 units of this stuff so I came armed with my ipod in order to jam while I picked that stuff. I had thought that maybe I would think of some icon keywords, and I found this one picture of Yuri/Flynn from Tales of Vesperia were totally iconnable so I thought that maybe I would find song that would help the icon come to life.
But then somehow then I thought of pairings that it was likely I would never ever icon, Yuri/Flynn being one of them since it reminded me of an ex. There was a lot of emotional stuff there-- it's the same with Citan/Sigurd and Ukitake/Shunsui. Pairings that sort of remind me of her so I pretty much shy away from them. Don't get me wrong, I still like the pairings; but I like them safely and from a distance because there's still fallout there-- even after 4 years (wow, has it been that long? Now THAT is hard to believe)
It is also why I tend to ship het for the most part-- though there are some m/m and f/f that I dig-- I just remember being gayed out on the RP front, so my mind wants different things, things that doesn't remind me of her. So while I am still fond of Yuri/Flynn and Yuri/Raven; I am a big proponent of Yuri/Estellise. Because my mind grasps for things that are considered to be safe. All old fandoms have that potential to make me wistful and nostalgic, and maybe even a little bittersweet. I remember all the pain, but then I also remember the good times. You can't really have one without memory of the other.
Today is my friday and it's rumored that we're getting pizza! I hope it's not Papa John's because that is what they feed us all the time-- I wonder if there's soylent hidden in it? (mad props if you actually know what Soylent is--)
Yesterday I picked ferring, which is pretty much the medicine for any time of vaginal ick that you can think of to have-- or rather it's OB/GYN stuff. And there were 10,000 units of this stuff so I came armed with my ipod in order to jam while I picked that stuff. I had thought that maybe I would think of some icon keywords, and I found this one picture of Yuri/Flynn from Tales of Vesperia were totally iconnable so I thought that maybe I would find song that would help the icon come to life.
But then somehow then I thought of pairings that it was likely I would never ever icon, Yuri/Flynn being one of them since it reminded me of an ex. There was a lot of emotional stuff there-- it's the same with Citan/Sigurd and Ukitake/Shunsui. Pairings that sort of remind me of her so I pretty much shy away from them. Don't get me wrong, I still like the pairings; but I like them safely and from a distance because there's still fallout there-- even after 4 years (wow, has it been that long? Now THAT is hard to believe)
It is also why I tend to ship het for the most part-- though there are some m/m and f/f that I dig-- I just remember being gayed out on the RP front, so my mind wants different things, things that doesn't remind me of her. So while I am still fond of Yuri/Flynn and Yuri/Raven; I am a big proponent of Yuri/Estellise. Because my mind grasps for things that are considered to be safe. All old fandoms have that potential to make me wistful and nostalgic, and maybe even a little bittersweet. I remember all the pain, but then I also remember the good times. You can't really have one without memory of the other.
Today is my friday and it's rumored that we're getting pizza! I hope it's not Papa John's because that is what they feed us all the time-- I wonder if there's soylent hidden in it? (mad props if you actually know what Soylent is--)