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[alwaysbeenasmiler]

I click the random button and I get this! Will wonders never cease!

Last night I woke up at around 3 AM due to heart palpitations. I mean they were pretty serious or so I thought-- and I felt dizzy and short of breath and I felt like I was going to pass out if I didn't get to the ER fast. So I drove myself there (Yes, even I too want to avoid an unnecessary ambulance bill) and so I got there and then they took pictures of my heart, they monitored my vitals until I got back down to around 83 (when I arrived, my heartbeat was 117).

But the doctor was like "All the tests were good, Do you suffer from anxiety". and I was like, "No.. I don't think so-- generally I am a very positive person"

But then after going home, getting some sleep and then waking up-- I think that maybe I have recently developed anxiety. I don't want to think that any one thing helped it along, certainly it isn't my relationship life since I could never be more happy with Owen. But maybe, I am just anxious about the state of the world-- I remember on election night going to sleep with a heavy heart, and then waking up to my heart racing. I checked my phone and sure enough, there was something that I didn't want to happen--

And I thought to myself-- maybe that with the sheer shittiness that was 2016 might have contributed it, with me thinking that something 'must' be lurking around the bend or over my shoulder. I remember waking up to a racing heart maybe around the first of january but I was able to calm myself to go back to sleep-- in spurts.

Does anyone have anxiety? I am so at a lost here, I don't even understand it-- what do you guys do to cope?

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[breyzyyin]

I've suffered from extreme anxiety my whole life (largely due to my OCD), and it isn't easy to cope with. Relaxation techniques can help quell it down, but...I always have a nervous ball of energy in the pit of my stomach and feel like my heart is racing a mile a minute. Trying to divert your attention and distract yourself can help, as can breathing techniques and even exercise. There's also medicine and therapy that can help calm things down too, and I had to start retaking anxiety medicine again myself due to an increase in overall anxiousness I was feeling as a result of this last year.

I'm sorry, I wish I could be more helpful...I've kind of just learned to accept it at this point since it's never gone away completely. I am so, so sorry that you're going through this! *hugs tightly*

[alwaysbeenasmiler]

*hugs* Thank you so much-- I never saw myself as someone that is anxious but then I guess I have started to be that way-- I think as I've gotten older and seen life just sort of pass me by, I did try a breathing technique before bed and it seemed to help, I was feeling chilled and cold and shivering and I'd just lay in bed and repeat to myself "I am warm,"deepbreath"I am safe"deepbreath"I am loved"deep breath. And that helped me fall asleep.

I think that I don't notice my anxiety until I'm jostled from sleep by it with a racing heart beat-- like my thoughts run rampant and I don't know which way to turn.

Those words were meaning ful and I am glad that you have some sort of techniques-- and I'm sorry that the last year super stressed you out, I think it did to me too. I am really starting to hate most social media for the fact that there is too much information being fed and not much of it is positive.